So I think I’ve found my favourite new flowers, at a time I’m also trying to find a new direction.
I think one of the hardest lessons I’ve learnt over the past few months is that you can’t do it all. I’ve never relied on what I do on Instagram to pay my bills (my real job does that) but I have relied on Instagram as an outlet, a way of connecting with people who have similar interests and ultimately what I get up to on here is my hobby.
Do I want to share everything about my life? Not really. Snippets of my life is fine but having run down my shop and changed my insta handle to match my blog, I’m kinda feeling what now? What next? Do I even need a direction?
I follow so many different accounts on Instagram and speak to so many people that more often than not, I’m hearing people say they feel restricted by the persona they’ve created on social media, feeling like they can’t stray from the online identity they’ve created for themselves. So what do you do? Join the masses? Post aimless daily instastories? Take a ton of photos hoping to get the perfect shot for your page? Is that what social medias really all about?
I spoke to someone recently who said before you can set your goals you need an aim. So what are my aims? What’s the purpose behind the page?
I’m constantly working on so many new projects, maybe it’s time to streamline, refocus & make social media more about the social again. But for now I need to make it a hobby again, focus on the purpose and reset the goals…watch this space.
You know the one, the one where you feel like you’ve had 15 minutes of sleep but you spent your 15 minutes of sleep in some crazy arse dream and you wake up feeling like you need to go back to bed? You know, the kinda day where no matter how much time you left yourself to get ready this morning, you still find yourself sitting in traffic trying to get to work an hour later than planned? Or you get to work and someones jammed the photocopier and you spend 20 minutes of your precious time trying to retrieve the crumpled bit of paper wedged down the back of the only draw you can’t remove? Or one of those days where you simply find yourself not wanting to talk to a single person because actually all you want to do is be at home, in bed, eating sushi (actually maybe a bargain bucket) and drinking organic herbal tea (I mean wine, definitely wine). Well today has been one of those days.
What started out as a “how the bloody hell is it Monday again?!” kinda morning turned into a “right I can do this” kinda day. I think it would be fair to say that if the last year has taught me anything – I’m speaking with my reflective teacher head on here! Then actually, the whole positive ‘I can do this’ attitude really does exist, it truly makes a difference and mind over matter is far more powerful than you think.
If someone had sat me down this time last year (I was still pregnant by the way) and told me what the future had in store for me, then first of all I would have thought they were insane, second of all I would have probably ran away but more than anything, I would have told myself “I can’t do this”. But guess what? I did, I’m here and I’m now having more good days than bad. The key to it is the strategy I’ve developed (although I’m yet to name it) and the fact I force myself to use it whenever a ‘screw this’ day rears its ugly head. And here it is – if it’s a dreaming of a bargain bucket, wine drinking, lounging in bed kind of day, then I break it down into manageable chunks – a bit like I do when my PT says we’re holding the plank for 2 minutes! And the best thing about it is; it works. So this morning at 7.30, post photocopier wrestling session, I set myself the task of just getting to 8.30. 8.30 comes, I know I have 15 minutes until the morning meeting and then at 9am an hour and a half lesson to get through…and so the day continues until I arrive at my favourite time of day – home time!
I’m not saying my strategy will work for everyone, in fact it might not work for anyone else in the world but it works for me, gets me through and turns my THOSE days into “I’ve got this” kind of day. Try it, it might just get you through tomorrow.
P.S. I’ve never actually had a day of feasting on a Bargain Bucket, downing wine and generally just lounging around in bed but maybe it’s now something for the to do list…